posted on: Friday, December 21, 2012
before you decide to become a doctor....
consider the fact that you'll probably be working Thanksgiving
and New Years
and your birthday
you might even find yourself alone, in a strange town,
60 miles away from your husband, the week before Christmas
remember the very people you are trying to save
will call you sweetie...nurse...f***ing bitch
and spit in your face
and vomit on your scrubs
and bleed on your shoes
remember that you'll consider two days off in a row to be an enormous luxury
you'll have a little money, yes.
but no free time to spend it.
remember that your friends will all have their babies together
and you'll be a step behind the ones you love best
remember that you'll sleep at weird times
and get annoyed when your family calls you when you're sleeping
even though even your own husband can't remember your schedule
because it changes all the time
remember how you'll miss your family during holidays
and sometimes hate yourself for feeling envious of your patients
whose families are there with them
remember that the hurt and sorrow that your patients experience
will affect you deeply.
and you will hurt with them.
cry when you tell them they've miscarried.
mourn when you tell them they have cancer
feel the shock when you tell them they're paralyzed
imagine an iota of the grief they must feel when you tell them their child has died.
remember that when the rest of the world wonders how a man can shoot first-graders
you will be wondering how the first responders handled what they saw
and asking yourself how you would cope with your ER being flooded with tiny bodies
wondering how those doctors even made it through the rest of their shift
before you decide to become a doctor
remember these things.
think hard on it.
because it's hard. it's really really hard. and you have to be sure.
or you won't make it.