it was a beautiful Christmas. time spent with the people that mean the most to me in all the world. watching movies. playing with puppies. going to the beach in both 80- and 50-degree weather. cooking and eating more than 8 humans should be physically able to consume. laughing. crying. telling stories. asking ourselves what Dad would be doing if he were there. remembering him. missing him.
one of my very best friends recently shared a quote with me that talks about the difference between happiness and joy. to paraphrase, happiness is a shallow emotion, and cannot exist where sorrow enters. joy, however, is deep and sustaining, arising from sorrow and able to withstand all grief. this is how i felt this Christmas. the grief was ever-present, and there were moments when it overwhelmed me. but the joy was constant as well. it was deep, genuine, and overwhelming in its own right.
i am so thankful to have spent this holiday with these people. my people.
i haven't shared this video anywhere before now. it was played at the celebration we had in honor of my dad's life (some might call it a funeral, but we respectfully disagree). i share it with you now to give you a glimpse of who we were missing, and to grant you a taste of our joy. it's real. and it sustains me.